Dead flowers

I sprinkled some seeds from a packet about one year ago. Only few blossomed to the adult stage last year and frankly they weren't attractive. But I persisted (well, more likely got lazy and just wanted to stare at them) and this year, about fifty of them arised out of the 1 feet under. I got excited. I winked at them daily hoping that would help...(and occasional watering).

Today, I got out of the front door and saw NOTHING. ALL of them were wiped out! I screamed in my normal way. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. What happened to my flowers?

My mom, who's currently staying with me (=cleaning my place to her level of cleanness) has DESTROYED all of them thinking they were weeds.....

I got so upset and showed off my still existed child tantrum..

She got upset because she thought they were damn ugly and still believed they were weeds.

I got upset at her for responding back to me.

My dog got scared because I was yelling.

Now, I'm............sad. Sad for my flowers. Sad for my still-existing-dysfunctional-child tantrum. Sad for my mom for taking shit from her daughter. I'm sad for myself for losing something that were perhaps ugly but were like children to me.

It's a sad day. ...and it's only 10:23am.